
The Doctor was rummaging through a cupboard in a corner of the Console Room when an alarm went off. Startled, he stood up suddenly, bumping his head on the upper shelving. It took him a moment to recognize the incoming message alert for what it was, so much time having passed since someone had last communicated this way. Rubbing the crown of his head, the Doctor trotted over to the console and stared at the flickering orange light in the upper left corner of the communications panel.
"A message? From Gallifrey? Do I want this?" The sound kept on and at last he tapped the button that opened the channel. "Yes? Who is it?"
"Doctor, it is Andred." On the monitor a familiar face.
"Andred! How wonderful to hear from you." It had been at least 200 years since he last saw the man who took Leela away from the TARDIS. Who had married the wily and skilled warrior after their successful repelling of the Sontaran invasion of Gallifrey.
"I hope so. I have ... you knew that there was a sort of...Cardinal Nardani and his faction have been ... ah ... removed."
The Doctor wondered what "removed" really meant. "Nardani? Did I ever meet him?"
"Not while he was Cardinal, I believe. Perhaps before. As part of the ... ah ... cleanup, we have been reviewing the records he kept in his chambers. Quite a collection, a part of it from his time on the High Council during your second and third incarnation."
The Doctor frowned. "Why are you telling me this?"
Andred's mouth twitched. "Among his records was a file that pertained to you. Most of it recorded your encounters with the High Council over the centuries. A few reports on your activities away from Gallifrey after the High Council gave you back your freedom to operate the TARDIS. Materials that we intend to destroy under the Edict of Renunciation. But ..." Andred's voice got quieter, "there were a couple of things that I thought you should see first."
"Oh yes? What?"
"I would prefer it if we could discuss this face to face." Andred had his stoic Commander of the Chancellery Guards face on. The Doctor could not tell what he was trying to say, whether it was good or bad.
"I see. On Gallifrey?"
"I would have no justifiable reason to leave the planet just now."
"This all sounds rather ... and what reason would I have to?"
The Doctor realized that whatever happened to Nardani and his cohorts, the Time Lords were still a scheming and secretive clan. That was one of the reasons he had stolen a TARDIS and left Gallifrey in the first place.
"It is has been rather a long time since you visited me and the children. Not since she left me." Andred's lips tightened as he spoke of the death of Leela.
The Doctor saw again how much the Guard Commander had loved, still loved the semi-civilized woman who had been the Doctor's companion during his fourth incarnation. He nodded. "Yes. About time I saw the children. And you. Yes. I am on my way. What about permission to materialize? I did have some trouble the last time I was there."
"I am transmitting the authorization to External Access Control as we speak. Materialize at my quarters. Transmitting co-ordinates now. I will arrange for the children to come to supper and then we can talk after that."
"I look forward to seeing them. And you. Goodbye."
"I believe the Earth expression is 'see you soon.'" Andred returned the Doctor's smile and ended the transmission.
The Doctor stood staring at the console, eyes unfocused. As he wondered which great secret Andred could have found, his fingers began to dance across the buttons with a life of their own. A last flick of a switch and the central column began its rise and fall, accompanied by a dreadful wheezing sound. The sound brought the Doctor out of his distracted state.
"Well, we are off again. Aren't we, old girl?" He patted the console
affectionately and went off into the interior of the TARDIS,
mumbling to himself.

The lean and strong-boned face of Leela's fourth child, Leelandredanan, smiled and immediately the Doctor saw her mother echoed there. Her sister and two brothers, who had left moments before after thanking the Doctor for his visit, were, in looks, not unlike their mother but this last child of Leela behaved more like her mother than any of the others.
"Thank you for those stories, Doctor. Mother did not speak at great length about her life before coming to Father. I wish she had. It sounded as if she did some remarkable things."
"She was a remarkable person. It was a wonder to know her. I missed her when she left but one look at Andred and she said she had to stay and take care of him." A warm chuckle.
Andred looked at his hands. "She did too. Saved my life from that Sontaran and gave me such ... I wish it had been possible for her to live longer."
The Doctor patted his arm. "I have learned, my friend, that we must be glad of what we have while we have it. You had sixty years with her. That is longer than she would have lived on her own world. She was very happy with you. I saw that in her eyes. Besides, she would be very annoyed with us for looking back in so melancholy a manner. Getting on with things, that was always Leela."
Leelandredanan agreed. "One of the things Mother taught me: focussing on the future. That and how to disarm someone only with your hands."
"No!" Andred laughed. "She didn't! She promised me she would stop teaching her children how to survive in a hostile environment."
"It has been useful, Father. You know how difficult it can be at Academy Ceremonials. I have never had any problem finding a good place to stand with the children so they could see everything."
The Doctor laughed merrily and tapped Andred on the shoulder. "Ever the warrior. I wondered how she would take to living on Gallifrey. Whether it would change her. Seems she was changing Gallifrey."
"Mother was ... unique. I miss her. Now I must go. Doctor, please do visit again soon." She bowed, hands hidden in the sleeves of her gown, not entirely Leela's daughter at that moment. With a bow to her Father, she departed.
"Now, my friend, about these ..."
Andred interrupted. "The evening was most pleasant. Thank you for telling them those stories. Even to me, she did not speak much of that part of her life. I am glad we thought to record you as you spoke. We will be able to share that with the ... grandchildren ... is that the right term?"
"Yes, that is correct. The children of your children. How well do they take it, being the descendants of an off-worlder? Especially one as unrepentant about it as Leela."
He frowned. "A few problems but they all have their mother's indomitable spirit." As he talked, Andred lead the Doctor out into the garden. It was an unusual feature of personal quarters in the capital but Leela had wanted some natural place where she could escape the stifling atmosphere of an entirely controlled environment.
"Their father's strength too, I'll warrant. Now...?"
"Yes. Safe here." He reached behind a low bush and pulled out a small folder. "Please review these and tell me what to do with them. I will leave you to read. There is some work I need to do in that corner of the garden." Andred walked away to a far side of the garden and disappeared behind a clump of low trees and bushes.
The Doctor sat on the rough log that served as a bench and opened
the folder. It contained four documents, one written in Gallifreyan
and three in some other script, on something he thought might be
parchment. He took up the larger of the parchment documents and
opened it. It was written in Old Gaelic script.
![]() It was in the season of winds, right at the feast of Saint Brighde of the Candles that a great storm came over the sea and crashed waves upon the shore. No man put out to fish, whatever his need. All day it roared and into the darkness of night. Great noise there was from the sea, much groaning of the water and crashing on the land that it touched. Thus in the ending, as wind softened at dawn, men came to the cliffs at Glandore to see what had been done and there on the sands, the fruit of the storm thrown up from the sea's treasures. Sea greens and fish and logs. The people gathered this bounty. But there, where the Cove of Siobhan bends back on itself they found a man. Laid, at the sea's mercy, on land. Near dead but not dead. Near dead but still a breath and a beat in him. His clothes, as soaked and ragged as they were, caused much wonder for none had seen anything like them. So they took him to the Ri Ailin Ua Donnachada, carried on a board washed up near him. The chief man among them spoke. "Ri, this one, he is a gift of the sea. He lives." And the Ri bid them carry him in and the man from the sea was taken to the guest chamber and laid before the fire there to warm. Laid beneath a fur robe he was, stripped of his most strange costume. The Ri touched the garments in wonder but said nothing. For two days and two nights, the man from the sea did not wake though he breathed more sure. On the second night, as the moon rose cool and high he began to speak in a tongue so strange. All who heard him wondered at the words but none understood. Not even the Ard Fili who served Ua Donnachada, Teige O'Dalaigh, a most wise and learned man of the fourth rank of the Fili. And the Ri asked O'Dalaigh "Could this be senseless babbling? Noises as a man makes in fever or as a babe before it speaks the tongue of men?" For the Ri was also a wise man and had observed much in his life. "I think not, my Ri, for I hear words in that and the rhythm of speech. It is some tongue we know not." The Ri thought and asked, "How then will we speak with him once he awakes?" The Ard Fili gave the Ri a broad smile. "Men speak with more than words, my Ri." The Ri was satisfied with that but asked again, "Could he be of the Old People, tossed into our world by the violence of the storm?" The Ard Fili said, "He has a look of him like the Old People. The face, you see...long face, fine bones in the cheeks, arch of the eyebrows. Bred of the Old People, maybe." The women of the house kept watch over the man brought from the sea for those two days and among them the Ri's youngest daughter, Isibeal. The only unpledged child of his body and a favourite. His heart's delight, the image of his wife gone to God ten years, blessed in memory. A lady of dark red hair and sparkling eyes. The Lady Isibeal listened close to the man's ramblings and puzzled over the meanings. She sat by his side and washed his face in his fever and listened. On the fourth day after the sea delivered him to the land, the man's fever fell away and he slept quiet again. Then in an early morning filled with sun, the holy day of Saint Agatha, blessed be her name among angels and men, he opened his eyes. Such fine eyes, clear and blue and unwavering. The Lady Isibeal was sitting at this time, reading her book, and he saw her. Then did he give her a smile that was most sweet and gentle. The Lady smiled in return and asked the man how he fared. All were surprized when he spoke clear and perfect in the Gael. "Well and I am bounden to you and your household for my care." The Lady Isibeal shook her head. "Sir, you are a guest in my Lord Father's lands, in his house. We have done what the Lord Jesus taught us. It is a Christian's joy, sir." Again he thanked her and made as if to rise. "You should not, sir. You have not eaten this five days and only last evening free of the fever." Yet he rose and was steady on his feet. He did wonder at the loose gown he wore, down to his toes and over his hands. "The fellow whose gown this is, he is a giant." The Lady laughed. "The gown is my own Lord Father's gown. A mighty tree among we shrubs." For the lady was not tall nor broad but fine as a young tree, supple and strong enough to withstand the winds of living. The man from the sea gave a full man's laugh and bowed a little to her. "Lady, a mighty oak has begot sweet fruit in you." They laughed together and thus the Ri found them, standing in the warmth of the sun coming through the window, smiling into each other's eyes. The Ri looked at them and was uneasy in his heart. The man from the sea saw the Ri and greeted him as is proper, thanking him for his hospitality to a stranger. As his daughter, the Ri spoke of his Christian duty. He bid the man stay in his house as long as he desired but asked his name. "Ollam," the reply. This was much amazing news to the whole household and they stood silent as the world at moonrise. The man saw this and asked if there was something wrong. The Ri assured him. "It is that we did not know. Be most welcome, Ollam. How long will you stay with us." And the Ollam said, "I am lost from my companions in the storm. With your indulgence, sir, until I find them." The Ri promised to help him find his friends and asked where he was bound so that he might send a message to find them but the Ollam did not know the name of the place. Thus the Ri sent out messengers to many places along the coast to seek for the Ollam's companions. The Ri and the Ollam spoke for some time of the Filidh arts and of the learning that the Filidh had. It was agree that until his companions were found, the Ollam would give his wisdom to the youngest son of the Ri, Caillin, to fit him for the duties he would take on at his marriage. This young lord was contracted to marry Seadach, only living child of Cieràn Mac Connaill and the last of that house. Caillin was difficult in his studying and the Ri sent Isibeal to be with him for sister and brother shared an affection being born at the same moment, but two most disparate beings they were. But where Isibeal was dark, Caillin was fair. Where she was gentle, he was wild; she patient, he choleric. Yet loved they each the other with truth and laughter and Isibeal cajoled her brother to his studies. Much time was spent in the reading of manuscripts and the discussion of what they had read with the Ollam. When the weather was fair, they walked in the gardens studying the plants that were starting the new season there. In rain, within the solarium. The marriage of Caillin and Seadach was to be at the end of harvest. At the time of the Ollam's coming from the sea, winter was still blowing hard. The Ri was happy that his son would have much learning in the time before his marriage. For on that event, Caillin would become lord of Mac Connaill, the lands of his intended coming into his control, she bereft of father or mother or brothers. The Ri knew Caillin would be far from his father's influence and might become lost in the fiery side of his nature. The Ri prayed that the learning the young man was gaining would help him against his wilder nature. Of a night the Ri would invite the Ollam to sit with him at supper and in the mornings to ride out in the hills with him. The Ollam was kind and warm natured, and treated all in the household with gentlemanly regard. And the Ollam, in his wisdom, respected the learning of the Ard Fili and sought it out. Thus the Ard Fili who, had he been a lesser man, may have been angered by being displaced in his Ri's eye, knew the Ollam's value and accepted him as a superior in the Filidh arts but a brother too. So it was that the man from the sea became favoured of the household. So did winter fade to the soft ways of spring and the rude wind calm its passions. The spring started toward summer and plowing and planting began. In time, summer was upon them, warm days and nights. Isibeal reached in that summer heat the age of her womanhood. Her time not in the household duties she spent with the Ollam and the household whispered of it. Whispered behind hands and closed doors and in corridors but nothing was said to Isibeal or the Ollam or the Ri. Yet the Ri knew what was being said. He worried in his heart. There was the night of Lunasa, moon high in the sky. A night of sighs and pleasures in the dark. After the feasting and the bonfires, the dancing began. Isibeal danced only with the Ollam and he only with her. They were as one being, moving like the wind-combing of grass, like the flowing of water, like the wheeling of birds. Sweet were their smiles and light their laughter. Before all they danced. Before Ri and Tiarna and Ridire. Before householder and farmers. Before her father. Oh, even before Ailin Ua Donnachada. But he said nothing and did nothing. At the feast of Saint Bartholomew, there came word of some incursions at the borders of the Ri's lands from the lands of Godraidh Ua Caim, second son of Domnail Ua Caim. His holdings were not great and he sought in the way of warriors back to the time of Clu Chulain to take what was not held tightly and close. The Ri Ua Donnachada was not a lord that desired to fight but he knew he must be ready to protect what was his against such as Godraidh Ua Caim. He gathered the Twenty Seven who were his knights to council with him on this matter. The Ard Fili Teige O'Dalaigh and the Ollam were there, quiet and listening. The chief among his knights reminded the Ri of all the land he had lost to the Norman lords when King Henry of the Sasenaigh had taken the Gael lands twenty years before. The chief knight's voice filled with contempt for Godraidh Ua Caim. "He is unseasoned as a man in battle. He insults you, a boy throwing challenge to a man, you, a lord of power. A snap of your fingers and he will run from you. This boy must be taught to honour the ways of a man." The Ri looked at the Ollam and the Ard Fili and the Ollam shook his head. "That is the way to war, sir. What if he does not run but turns to attack." The Ridire spoke strongly. "We will defeat him!" But the Ollam was not so confident and he cautioned the Ri, "In arrogance and choler are bitter regret sown. I have myself reaped the hard fruit of such a sowing." The Ard Fili added his own cautions to the Ollam's words. The Ri sat silent staring into the Ollam's eyes and saw the truth and pain of his words. He spoke to the whole council. "How far should this lesson to a boy be taught?" and the chief knight cried out "All the way to his sire's den." The Ri did not smile. "Ah, then we will face them both. They and their allies. No. I will send to Domnaill Ua Caim and his son that we may speak of this thing. Have the letters written. But also write to those who are in alliance with me to stand ready should I need them." And the Ard Fili O'Dalaigh went to do the Ri's bidding. Still the Ollam sat with the Ri. "Sir, I beg you for your own sake." But the Ri raised his hand. "Fear not, Ollam, your words have been heard. The wise man prepares for the worst and seeks the best." The Ollam acknowledged the wisdom of the Ri. Thus came together at the place of the Bishop of Corcaigh the Ri Ua Caim and his son and a cadre of his warriors to meet with Ri Ua Donnachada and his sons and 10 of his warriors. The talk was long and some time heated in the mouths of young men but at the end there was an accord. The honour price was paid by the Ua Caim and it was decided that the Godraidh Ua Caim would marry Lady Isibeal to seal a peace between the families and that some property on the edge of the Ri's land near Godraidh 's holdings would go with her but remain hers and her family's for all time. They pledged to be allies against common enemies and not to bother each other's lands. So at the time of her brother's marriage to Seadach, the Lady Isibeal married Godraidh Ua Caim. But the Ollam was not there to see it. Word had come of his companions and he had gone to them and was not seen again in Desmumu. Written by Tiernan, ![]() |
The Doctor sat staring at the parchment for a few moments, his
face creased in a frown. He put the document aside and picked up
the next. A poem in ancient Gaelic.



The other small paper had a second poem but for a moment his mind refused to understand the words.
M'anam do sgair riomsa a-raoir.
M'aonar a-nocht damhsa, a Dhè.
The Doctor closed his eyes and tilted back his head. With a will, he
reached out and pulled the connection closer. A slow breath and he
looked down at the paper.



He sat silent and barely breathing until a sound from Andred's work at the far side of the garden brought him back. The last document in the file was in Old High Gallifreyan, a copy of an electronic record.
Notation to the file of the Time Lord styled as the Doctor. The attached documents were gathered from the planet Sol 3 to clarify certain memories of the Doctor taken at the time of his exile to Sol 3. The documents are copies from the 13th century Present Age, Sol 3 timeframes, of original documents of late 12th century and early 13th century, Present Age. Research into the period indicates that the woman called Isibeal Ua Donnachada was widowed in her marriage to Godraidh Ua Caim within two years after his death in a battle with the Ua hEitirsceoil clan. Over the next 100 years both her family and her deceased husband's lost land and power to the Ua hEritiesceoil in a primitive round of petty squabbles. There is no record extant that the Doctor returned to the period and place.
His eyes stared, wide and unbelieving. The last document slipped unnoticed to the ground, and numb, he murmured, "I did not know. Oh, I did not realize she..."
Andred came to him quickly. "Doctor, I am sorry. I thought ..."
Raising one hand, the Doctor forestalled any further words from Andred. He turned away and managed to get his breathing and hearts rate under some control. "No. It is finding out after all this time." He turned back to Andred. "I didn't know, you see. My first real contact with humans and I discover now I handled it badly. Began later to keep my distance."
Andred shook his head. "I don't understand."
"I had never encountered ... did not expect to be loved. I would not have stayed with them had I realized." He looked at Andred and the Guard Commander was struck at how child-like the expression of vulnerability on the Doctor's face was. It reminded him of Leela when she first met rejection in Gallifreyan society.
"But what is wrong in being loved?"
"I could not return it. I let her love me and I should not. I did not realize that was what she was feeling. Friends. I thought we were friends. I should have stopped it."
Andred smiled. "Love can not be commanded to appear or disappear. It happens. Sometimes suddenly. Leela was sudden. Sometimes more slowly. Like Isibeal."
"It was wrong. I had nothing to give her back."
"Accepting for the moment that is true ... and I am not so sure it is ... would you have denied her the joy she felt in loving you?"
"Look what happened to her. Married to a man she did not love for political reasons."
"Would that not have happened whether she loved you or not? By being there, you gave her the chance to love. Something to keep in her heart forever." When the Doctor stared at him, Andred grinned. "Yes, Leela did change parts of Gallifrey. She taught me the value of loving. Of risking for love."
"She made you a romantic!"
"Perhaps. I regret not one second of being with her, however short that time was. And I am sure Isibeal would say the same."
The Doctor blinked and considered. "May I keep these?"
Andred's face went all neutral. "What are you speaking of? "
"Thank you." He slid the small folder into a capacious pocket in the left side lining of his coat and held his left hand on it. "I must leave now." He extended his right hand to Andred who stared for a moment before taking it in a firm grip. "Thank you."
"Come to see us again but not so long this time."
"Yes, of course. But not for a while. I have some things I need to ..." A pause and in a quieter and gentler tone. "Let me know how you all are from time to time. I will come back when I can."
Andred nodded in reply and watched the Doctor walk away into
the house and through the open door of his TARDIS. A wheezing
and the Vortex opened and took the TARDIS in.


| 1. | A few words of Gaelic have been used without translation. The sense
of the words, all but one, may be determined from the story.
Nevertheless, here they are. Ri loosely translated is King but not in the modern sense. Really, holder of a large territory. Above Ri was Ard Ri or High King; the below the Ri was Tiarna, holding a smaller territory. There did not exist at this time in Ireland a master/vassal relationship between levels of the nobility. Rather kin relationships and alliances structured the connections between the nobles. Ridire were the knights of Ireland, mounted warriors who served an Ard Ri, Ri or Tiarna. They usually had land holdings of their own within the territory of the lord they served. By tradition, a lord had 27 members to his court, hence the reference to the Twenty Seven in Ua Donnachada's council. Fili, pl. Filidh, who were the highly trained poet/historians. Note that they are not bards. Bards were a lower status group who worked for Filidh, singing or playing what the Fili had written. Formal training of Fili lasted for years and there were seven ranks of achievement. Ollam is the highest rank a Fili would achieve through training and skill and may be translated as doctor or master. Ollam Mac Lir means Ollam son of the Sea. |
| 2. | The Ua Donnachada and Ua Caim were real Gaelic families in Cork in the late 12th century. By the end of the 13th century they were gone as powerful entities, replaced by the Ua hEritiesceoil, now called O'Driscoll and by Norman earls, all part of King Henry's efforts to degaelicize Ireland. The Norman invasion of Ireland began in 1169 and by 1172, Henry II of England had convinced the Pope to name him lord over Ireland. It is interesting to note that before the Norman invasion, Ireland's Christianity was based in the Byzantine church, not the Roman one. |
| 3. | "M'anam do sgair riomsa a-raoir. M'aonar a-nocht damhsa, a Dhè ."
These lines are taken from a 12th century lament by the
Fili Muirèadhach O'Dalaigh on the death of his wife. The full text of this
lament in the original Gaelic and in English may be found at: http://www.dnaco.net/~mobrien/irishptr/irepoems/manamdo.html The O'Dalaigh Filidh in this story are based on this same Filidh family but are fictitious, as are the particular Ua Donnachada and Ua Caim characters used in the story. At least, I think they are fictitious. But who knows. |
| 4. | Dedication. My love and thanks to my Irish-born Da, Joseph, who taught me a love of poetry and story telling by his own example. And to all those wonderful Filidh who wrote so eloquently of the lives and emotions of the people of their time. |
